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heyyy...!!!

   How shocking and surprising this life is. You expect something, you dream of something all your life... you sacrifice many things to reach out to those dreams... and finally all of a sudden, life will open up a page which will just throw you away from all those dreams. you will not dare anymore to dream anything...may be even to close your eyes u will not have courage.

     how will I achieve all those things i had dream of...Hmnn.. Life..you can not be so rude with me. Atleast tell me for what this punishment? for trying to be honest, genuine, truthfull all my life? for sacrificing all my dreams to be a disciplined girl?

    I have no much dreams.. that's completely fine for me if i dont have any boyfriend. its also fine if i dont have a car, if i dont have a big house, if i dont have a large bank account, if i dont have a big status. But... I'm not prepared to die bcz i have not fulfilled my parents wishes still. and pls life... dont go away from me before I do it.

    I need to build a small two bedroom house for them. i need to save some money for them so that they will not have to depend on any 1 after i die. I need to do all the things which can make them independent after i leave them. and all my life i had dream of only this. Infact i couldnt make them feel proud for having me as i didnt achieve anything impt...

Please life give me some time... Hopefully i will do something usefull..


With lot of tears inside my heart...

ದೀಪು...

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A Lesson in Life

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, if they be events, illnesses or relationships, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks you heart, forgive them. For they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to who you open your heart to. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things you would have never seen or felt without them. Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you either. You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it…

GOOD LUCK

JUST LOVE...!
Would you like to try something that has the potential of altering all your relationships for the better? Start loving for no rational reason. Ignore all your reasons not to love. Just love. Keep loving for as long as you want. See if you can maintain this love feeling while encountering the limitations of other human beings. Set a boundary, and love. Say, "No," and love. Disagree with someone and love. Problem solve with someone you have difficulty with and love. You will learn that you are capable of loving in spite of the limitations around you. You will learn that loving can bring about positive changes that otherwise would never occur. And you will learn the peace and joy that comes with loving.
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Only the ego can be touched. It is very touchy. If somebody just looks at you in a certain way, it is touched. He has not done anything. If somebody smiles a little, it is touched; if somebody just turns his head and does not look at you, it is touched. It is very touchy. It is like a wound, always open, green. You touch it and the pain arises. A single word, a single gesture -- the other may not even be aware of what he has done to you, but he has touched it.

And you always think the other is responsible, that he has wounded you. No, you carry your wound. With the ego your whole being is a wound. And you carry it around. Nobody is interested in hurting you, nobody is positively waiting to hurt you; everybody is engaged in safeguarding his own wound. Who has got the energy? But still it happens, because you are so ready to be wounded, so ready, just waiting on the brink for anything.

You cannot touch a man of Tao. Why? -- because there is no one to be touched. There is no wound. He is healthy, healed, whole. This word 'whole' is beautiful. The word 'heal' comes from 'whole', and the word 'holy' also comes from 'whole'. He is whole, healed, holy.

Be aware of your wound. Don't help it to grow, let it be healed; and it will be healed only when you move to the roots. The less the head, the more the wound will heal -- with no head there is no wound. Live a headless life. Move as a total being, and accept things.

Just for twenty-four hours, try it -- total acceptance, whatsoever happens. Someone insults you, accept it, don't react, and see what happens. Suddenly you will feel an energy flowing in you that you have not felt before. Somebody insults you: you feel weak, you feel disturbed, you start thinking of how to get your revenge. That man has hooked you, and now you will move round and round. For days, nights, months, even years, you will not be able to sleep, you will have bad dreams. People can waste their whole life over a small thing, just because someone insulted them.

Just look back into your past and you will remember a few things. You were a small child and the teacher in the class called you an idiot, and you still remember it and you feel resentment. Your father said something. Your parents have forgotten, and even if you remind them, they will not be able to remember it. Your mother looked at you in a certain way and since then the wound has been there. And it is still open, fresh; if anybody touches it, you will explode.

Don't help this wound to grow. Don't make this wound your soul. Go to the roots, be with the whole. For twenty-four hours, just twenty-four hours, try not to react, not to reject, whatsoever happens.

If someone pushes you and you fall to the ground -- fall! Then get up and go home. Don't do anything about it. If somebody hits you, bow down your head, accept it with gratitude. Go home, don't do anything, just for twenty-four hours. And you will know a new upsurge of energy that you have never known before, a new vitality arising from the roots. And once you know it, once you have tasted it, your life will be different. Then you will laugh at all the foolish things you have been doing, at all the resentments, reactions, revenges, with which you have been destroying yourself.

Nobody else can destroy you except you; nobody else can save you except you.
You are the Krishna and you are the Jesus.
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